3 years & Counting

I don't expect anyone to read this I think it is more for myself. But thank you if you do and give me some advice if you have some to spare!

It has been 3 years since I came home from Ecuador and started life out again as a student, an employee, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and now a wife. I got married last year and I am now turning 24 this next February. My life since serving a mission has been so interesting and so not what I expected. As I read through some of these posts I miss Hermana Dunkley so badly and recognize that I need to find her within myself once again. I am so happy and grateful for where I am now. I have an amazing husband who was a missionary and a friend who supported me through my mission experience. I am about to graduate with my Bachelor's degree from Brigham Young University in Psychology. I have a home and a job that is difficult, but fulfilling. Unfortunately I find myself sitting here writing to you 3 years later because I have lost apart of that devotion to God that I gained as a sister missionary.

I believe in God and I love him so much, my actions do not always show it though. As trials have come I sometimes fall away without meaning too. Now as I face a challenge of doing some dumb assignment that I have put off for too long I can see in myself how I haven't reached to God for his help first like I did everyday in Ecuador.

I mean to write this to the internet to make myself accountable and to push myself to just choose to start figuring out life again. I have changed a lot for the better as well, but I need Hermana Dunkley's faith right now and I choose to push forward once again.

So here it goes...on to my assignment that must be done, and on to the world I sometimes do not want to enter, but I know if I look for a little bit of faith in God I can probably pull myself out of this rut.

Con mucho amor de Provo, Utah,

Hermana Dunkley.... Madison Cicon